I lost my beloved father this past weekend. Although my number was programmed into his phone, apparently, they didn't notice, so they didn't call me until last night. It was a very tough night, this being an event that will drastically change my life once his home is sold. I'm headed for Oakland today, to be with my sisters, to remember what a wonderful father he was, & how very much we'll miss him. I've been going up to cook his Thanksgiving & Christmas dinner for him for several years, & I can't possibly express how very devestated I am, & how hard I'm trying to be strong. I'll rent a car to get up there (hub will need his truck to get to work, & no he won't take time off) but then I'll use dads car to run errands etc. This will be a good time (when my sisters have gone) to talk to the DA about the cold case I just spoke of (which is now in google, that really surprised me), so I hope I can accomplish all that my father wanted, so since I'll be in Oakland, perhaps someone from the DA's office can come speak to me. I'll be online while I'm up there, so I'll keep everyone aware of what's happening. In the mean time, it's now time to be with my sisters & remember our father for the wonderful loving man he was. Pray for me, if you pray, that I can retain my strength during this sad sad time in my life. Blessed be, QuellyQ

I was discussing this with a friend yesterday & now can't get it off my mind, & don't really know what to do. Approx 30 years ago, in Oakland California, a man named Herman Hunter was murdered by two men at his little thrift store on the corner or near Hegenberger & Foothill Blvd.

I know who did it, & hope to God it's unsolved, because the thought of someone sitting in prison or dying with a bad name is just unbearable. My stepfathers friend was pistol whipped by Herman, & left for dead. He helped nurse his friend back to health. One day I visited my step father, & mentioned I was going to stop by the thrift store, & he told me to stay away from that place, & would say no more. I did what he told me, & within

a week Herman was shot when opening the door to his store after hours (so he knew them) & was shot by 2 guns of different calibur. One was held by my step father, the other by the friend Herman had beaten. This is not a repressed memory, just something I had forgotten until just recently. When I called the Oakland PD, they wouldn't talk to me about it, & to think someone may die or has died with this crime on their record is just driving me crazy. If I could just talk to someone about this very old case, & hope it's unsolved, I'd surely feel better, because I know the killers, & they are both dead as well. I'd just like to see if they convicted anyone for this crime, because if they did, they have the wrong man. I can only hope it has gone unsolved. I have a brother who is Herman's son, this too should be known by his relatives. Any suggestions, folks? Anything would truly be appreciated. Thank you all so much...

Blessed be, QuellyQ

Well, here's my little big man, he'll be 2 in late October, not full grown till 3. Vet says he's in beautiful shape, & that most people's mistake is to try to make them really huge. Hoss has unlimited lamb & rice dry food, then has chicken & rice for dinner with us, then sit pretty bones. Soon, I'll have some of him on hubs lap. You cannot see hub anymore, lol! When hub works nights, Hoss is my sleeping buddy & he doesn't toss & turn, but sleeps peacefully. I love the pic where he's loving me, bless his heart. Can't tell you how many tears he's licked off my face, so to me he's saved my life several times in less than 2 years. He's truly a God Send, & a gift from an onine girlfriend which really surprises, but she is truly a beloved friend. Red dog, my older dog, wll soon be 12, so soon I'll need to figure out how to get a female to have bred down the road after she's 3. Hoss will be too lonely without Red when the time comes, & I want no other dog in my life than this breed. Just amazing this dog is, & smart like you wouldn't belive. Wish me luck on Ellie Mae (the future female English, someday, when I can get one. I have a link, seems the cheapest runs around 500, so it will be very hard for me to buy her. I can feed & love her, it's that darned initial investment ya know? Here's to all good dogs, who so love their owners. (clinking coffee cup on monitor, lol)

Blessed be QuellyQ aka Kelley

Hi All!!

Well, the time has come soon, mid August, for me, finally, to talk to the surgeon who will hopefully fix me up, so I thought I'd better check in. I'm probably gonna be in the hospital for a few days, then they'll want me to walk (which I'd so love to do!), so, looks like they'll fix the discs, make a bigger hole in the bone for my sciatic nerve to pass through when inflamed, then fuse L1 up to L4. That, my friends, could very well be the end of my pain, which for me is very hard to imagine, after all these years.

Naturally, my marriage is screwy, as usual, but a couple weekends ago, he said (as we argued, which is a constant now, just past our 22nd anniversary) I'll LET you get your surgery & recover, then we need to talk. He'll LET ME? EXCUSE ME? So, I just smiled & said, ok, we'll talk. I have wanted out of this for about 3 yrs now, so if he wants to walk away, hey, cool, he broke the vows if that happens, not me. To think I stayed because his heart is bad, & didn't want to be that kind of person. So, I settled into trying to put a plan of where to go (again) together. Not having a car is still killing me, & I can't buy one, that's vs renting a uhaul for a ridicuous amount then getting there with no transportation, so frustration city once again. So now suddenly 2 weeks later, he's being nice again. I swear to God, this man is driving me far more insane than I already am, lol.  If I can figure a way, I'm outta here next spring, after recovered & well. That's the plan. A new life with no pain, & no man to have to deal with! I know, guys, sometimes you feel the same way, but trust me so do we women, sometimes all the time, such as myself. Well, I see the surgeon on the 13th, so I've been using Chantix to stop, it is  helping alot, as of my fifth day. They will NOT do the surgery if you don't quit smoking, then want you to stay stopped for 4 months as you recover. They say it impedes healing, & I wanna do everything right, ya know?

Well, there's the news. I'll blog again after I talk to the surgeon & have more to talk about unless I need to vent over my nutsy husband, lol. Love peace & chicken grease, Blessed Be, QuellyQ