OK, folks, I haven't been around for awhile, so much is happening in my life, but this is so important to California, I just had to voice my opionion!!!  Whether one likes it or not, if a kid's gonna try pot, they'll find it easily, & prohibition type situations won't stop that any more than it did with alcholol (a true drug, by the way..read the last 3 sentences of Genesis, book 1, Chapter 1).

Now I have been smoking marijuana for 45 years now, & I will never stop, legal or not.  It is such a help to me, with the amount of pain, & nerve damage, & lack of sleep...I could go on & on.  Instead, I have to take "medication" that is addicting & I don't want to be on!!  Who, that fought DRUG (pot is an herb) addiction since childhood only to become a legal addict because of my body turning on me with several ailments that will be with me for life, & I'd be so much happier if I could just smoke & relax, & hopefully, slowly begin to wean myself off DRUGS (they call em meds now, but they are the same).  Now even if you disagree with the law, at least truly read your information, is all I ask. It's a well written law, & could bring in, & I quote, tens of millions of dollars into the California system!!!!!! TENS OF MILLIONS OF TAX REVENUE, FOLKS, NOTHING TO SPIT AT!!!  I am a native Californian, have never been in trouble because of pot, nor have I driven while impared, nor have I worked impared, because I'm far from being a child now, & I have a brain. Please, for the sake of those of us, who will continue to buy it illegally if forced to, including many veterans, who it benefits greatly, lets's vote YES on 19, & we'll have jobs galore, & again I say:

TENS OF MILLIONS OF DOLLARS IN TAX REVENUE!

I pray (yes, I'm a Christian, the kind who follows the book, & does not judge, lest I be judged) & plea to those of you who realize what a huge benefit this will be for not just the state, but the people who depend on it for help.  It is simply a medicinal plant, that if NOT combined with alcholol, simply calms you down.  I don't think I've ever even heard of a pothead (who didn't take anything else) robbing, killing, or any of the other horrendous crimes that occur in this world). Please, it's time for this state to get out of the RED, & SO in the black, with the revenues collected, & the new businesses that will spring up, & truly change the economy for all of us Californians, so please, vote yes on 19, if only for the revenue sake.  And I personally thank you, for it helps my PTSD, & several other problems I deal with daily. Let's be smart people, & make this state some money (tens of millions is what it says, if you read it, yearly), & help those of us it helps so very much. Thank you for listening!  This is HUGE for California's future. Please, whatever your party, think of the ramifications of a yes vote, & the good it would do the state, if nothing else!

Sincerely, QuellyQ

One thing I forgot to mention....with all the mud slinging, isn't it odd that no one is saying a word about this particular Measure? Not pro, not con. Hmmmmm. Scared to admit it's a good thing for our state, & many of the people here? I'm not. Fight for the right to be free, friends, if ya don't fight back, they just run right over ya, we all know that!! With love & respect, QuellyQ

(((((((((((My Friends)))))))))))

I've missed so many of you, & it's time I spoke again. I haven't since my father passed away 15 months ago. Then I had spinal surgery the next month (scoliosis, & no, I wouldn't do it again, the pain just won't stop) & then just a matter of survival. To this day, I cry daily over the loss of my father, alligator tears, that I cannot stop. The bitch sister who has power of atty, is going to rent it out, so much for me getting my inheritance any time soon, huge fights with what I thought I had left for a family, well, when the house sells, they'll all be dead as far as I'm concerned. No one respected his last wishes, & there was nothing I could do about it, so very frustrating, month after month. I had to come back to my friends here, who cared enough to send so many comments when I lost dad, thank you all so very much, with all my heart. Well, hubby, since then, has had a few heart operations, 2 stents were put in, & he saw the doc yesterday, who told him if the new stronger cholestrol & blood pressure meds don't help, next is open heart surgery, bypass, the whole 9 yards. He may have to retire very young. He'll be 48 in 2 days, too young for all this. We've finally gotten to the point where the only bills we pay are doctors, & household bills, the rest go in a paper bag, unpaid. So sue me, I have nothing to take. We don't even own our truck yet, so pfttt to them. I simply cannot pay all the medical bills & still eat. It will effect my credit for awhile, but after 7 years,the bills are dismissed. If I'm taken to court, I'm sure the judge will see just how rough things are, & find in our favor. If not, I'll just let em put me in jail. Won't be the first time,but hoping that doesn't happen,of course. Although my pain doctor put me on methadone (I never wanted to die an addict,but in this case it's a med that I truly need.) At least I'm now only taking 20 mgs a day, it's not enough, but I try to use my norco to make up the difference, rather than take another methadone. I see the doc on the 9th. It just seems the pain is lasting too long. I was told 14 months, yet it is still bad. Oh well. Thank goodness for medication I suppose.

I hope in my absense all my friends have done well, I've surely miss all of you. I have avoided blogging to avoid tears, but so far, so good, so I'll go on.

My little Hoss (my english mastiff) turned 3 in Oct, on the 18th, & is still my assistant dog, thank God I trained him well. He's so big now, & such a beautiful boy, but little Red Dog (chow & queensland) is now 15, so if I can I need to try to save the money to get a new pup (female) so Hoss isn't alone. Maybe I'll get lucky. Hoss cost me 200, a friend paid for him, & I paid shipping of 205, & trust me,that's cheaper than dirt. Some sell as high as 5K (no way in hell), so I still look at puppys, although I haven't a cent saved (if I can't pay bills, how do I save anything, ya know?), so I can only hope for a miracle. The wicked witch of the west,aka, sister(half) in control of the estate,is going to rent it out,for God only knows how long,so life won't change much here until it does sell. If hubs heart gets worse, & I fear it will,he will have to retire very young, but we'll make it, with his pension,& ssi, & my ssi, even if we have to divorce & play not living together for the state (who the hell made that law anyway?) We'd be ok, if we went back to Lost Lake, a place I loved just across the river from Parker AZ, but came back here when hubbys mom had a stroke, & died within a few months, & he got his old job back,which is a good one for around here,so yes, I feel very stuck. I just want the house to sell. It was worth a cool million before the market took a nosedive, so those who accused me of wanting more money are the ones who hang onto it, I would have sold it by now. I happen to NEED it, in a huge way. Even if it sold for 800K, that's still 200K each, & we could live till our deaths with that. So, therein lies the financial part of this life I live. I often feel I was born & lived my life in Hell, so the Lord should have room for , I'm going to ask you to please vote for this blog, so everyone knows I'm back, could ya do that for me,please? I'll be writing much more often now. Much love to those of you I've missed so very much, & to anyone new who hasn't yet read any of my writings. Much love to all, QuellyQ

I lost my beloved father this past weekend. Although my number was programmed into his phone, apparently, they didn't notice, so they didn't call me until last night. It was a very tough night, this being an event that will drastically change my life once his home is sold. I'm headed for Oakland today, to be with my sisters, to remember what a wonderful father he was, & how very much we'll miss him. I've been going up to cook his Thanksgiving & Christmas dinner for him for several years, & I can't possibly express how very devestated I am, & how hard I'm trying to be strong. I'll rent a car to get up there (hub will need his truck to get to work, & no he won't take time off) but then I'll use dads car to run errands etc. This will be a good time (when my sisters have gone) to talk to the DA about the cold case I just spoke of (which is now in google, that really surprised me), so I hope I can accomplish all that my father wanted, so since I'll be in Oakland, perhaps someone from the DA's office can come speak to me. I'll be online while I'm up there, so I'll keep everyone aware of what's happening. In the mean time, it's now time to be with my sisters & remember our father for the wonderful loving man he was. Pray for me, if you pray, that I can retain my strength during this sad sad time in my life. Blessed be, QuellyQ

I was discussing this with a friend yesterday & now can't get it off my mind, & don't really know what to do. Approx 30 years ago, in Oakland California, a man named Herman Hunter was murdered by two men at his little thrift store on the corner or near Hegenberger & Foothill Blvd.

I know who did it, & hope to God it's unsolved, because the thought of someone sitting in prison or dying with a bad name is just unbearable. My stepfathers friend was pistol whipped by Herman, & left for dead. He helped nurse his friend back to health. One day I visited my step father, & mentioned I was going to stop by the thrift store, & he told me to stay away from that place, & would say no more. I did what he told me, & within

a week Herman was shot when opening the door to his store after hours (so he knew them) & was shot by 2 guns of different calibur. One was held by my step father, the other by the friend Herman had beaten. This is not a repressed memory, just something I had forgotten until just recently. When I called the Oakland PD, they wouldn't talk to me about it, & to think someone may die or has died with this crime on their record is just driving me crazy. If I could just talk to someone about this very old case, & hope it's unsolved, I'd surely feel better, because I know the killers, & they are both dead as well. I'd just like to see if they convicted anyone for this crime, because if they did, they have the wrong man. I can only hope it has gone unsolved. I have a brother who is Herman's son, this too should be known by his relatives. Any suggestions, folks? Anything would truly be appreciated. Thank you all so much...

Blessed be, QuellyQ