Well, I finally got my long needed MRI, & finally got a pain doc, who first put me on morpheine, but it just kept me asleep, so he switched it to methadone, which seems to be helping some. Anyway, the tech said my spine "was a twisted mess", plus there is damage to some discs. Looks like surgery is next, wooohooo. It's hard sometimes, for me to want to live anymore, having always been so active & once had such a full life, but I'll stay till the good Lord picks me to come home, just hope it doesn't take too long. Jeez, I sound depressed, don't I. Guess I am. This too shall pass. I'm just tired folks, that's all, just tired. Funny part is, I was born into drug addiction & alcoholism, ended up being a speed freak for years, then fought for years to stay clean, only to spend my last days on "meds", so it would seem I've completed the circle of life. Can't say I haven't done & seen many things in my life it's been full, but I really haven't been the same since my brother died, to be honest, which I think was 2001 (I try not to remember dates, too depressing). Kelley just wants to go home, my friends, plain & simple. Lots of friends & relatives there waiting on me, so I have no fear, thankfully, I know what awaits me, & one day I'll be there. Ugg, hate to blog a depressing blog, but I guess I just needed to talk to someone (whoever listens) & get it off my mind. Marriage is still a mess,the true joy I get out of my every day now is my Hoss, the English mastiff.I swear to you, this dog has saved me by just loving me for the time I've had him & he's still doing his job, helping me get out of my chair,helping me get up when I fall etc. He's always gonna be my honey boy,my little big man. He's 18 months old now, & about 130 or so now. Officially 1/2 a dog, cuz they don't reach matuity until they're a full 3 years old. He's gonna be a big boy. Well, I hope all of you are doing well. I love you all. Blessed be, QuellyQ

Sorry for no color, but mindsay must have a glitch, it won't let me pick one! Anyhow, hub had a second stint put into his heart this past Wednesday, then we come home to a broken cooler in the beginning of a heat wave, uggg! Yesterday was 100, today will be 102, then as follows: 101, 102, 99, then finally a break (right about the time we can fix the cooler, lol) 90, 83, & 90 again.

We put up a kiddy pool for our dogs yesterday, since we couldn't sit in the house until the sun went down, it spooked them, lol, so I sat in it, lol! They love the water, just don't know what to think of this tiny pool of water! Hub will squirt them down, to keep them cool. Hoss is huge & doesn't need to be super hot, & Red Dog is 11 1/2, so of course we're protective of her.

Well, my turn for doc next Thursday, & all he's gonna do is order an MRI, now that's it's been determined that there are no metal wires in my ears from when I was going deaf (my life, the soap opera, lol). Then another month I'll have to wait to find out what kind of surgery I have to get. I also found out I have scoliosis, which he says has already done it's damage. So, spinal surgery awaits me, & when that's done, I still want the lumbar shots in my spine to try to numb the pain of the sciatica. Thankfully, I found my medicare card, so hopefully it will only take a year or so to pay for hubbys doc & hospital, but all that I have coming up should be little to no cost to me thankfully! Just lots of medical problems here. And no, WakeMeUp didn't read or respond to my last writing, but then I suppose she was never a friend in the first place if an argument over a dog breed was big enough to not talk over, but just stop speaking to me. So, it's ok. Friends like that I do not need. I wish her the best, & I did love her with all my heart, for nothing, it would appear.

Well, that's about all that's happening around here (enough though right?) lol. I'll keep coming back, cuz I DO have friends here, & that's something I cherish, cuz obviously, a TRUE friend is very hard to find. Found that out the hard way. I look at it as her loss, not mine. I'll love her always, even if she hates me. And google, I suspect your name is Lou, which cracks me up if I'm right. You sure are bored, honey, aren't you? Sorry bout that. You outta try talking to me, but until then, you just keep reading my blogs doll, lol, hope you enjoy them, truly!

blessed be, all my friends, love, QuellyQ

Hi Wake me up. I just saw you, & of course voted for your blog today. Its been months since you stopped talking to me, & was it just over an argument about Ving Rhames & his choice (his bad choice) of guard dogs? Is it all really that simple, lady?

You're with me 24/7, sweetheart, & the things you made for me over time are all over my house, being a constant reminder of the loss of the most precious friend I've ever had online. I've been so afraid something happened with your x, so afraid you're life had taken a turn to the bad, so I remain worried about you, & my love for you will never die, no matter how much you may want it to, because once I love, it's with all my heart & forever. I so hope you see this on top blogs, just one vote would do, I just so want you to know how very much I STILL love you, & always will.  I'm not going to go on & on, love. Just (if you see this on top blogs) please know that I love & miss you very much, & that will end when I die. I so wish we could just chat once in awhile, if you don't want to be part of my life, hon. I just want to know you're ok, is all. I will love you till I die, WakeMeUp. Always & forever, blessed be, Kelley aka QuellyQ

Well, I'll be darned!! I just had to look at top blog list, & I'm on it, so I went straight to the list, & voted for all my friends, lol. Thank you, whoever you were. It's nice to think someone truly cares. I love you all....oooxoox, QuellyQ